So, good folks of the internet, it’s been a while. Nigh on five months, in fact.
Why has it been so long, you may wonder.
Real life has been hectic. In just over a week I am getting married, so there’s been a lot of preparation for that – ‘is this really happening?’ ‘How have I managed to swing this one?’ – work has also been very hectic, with securing a permanent job the main thrust over the last few months. Thankfully, a permanent job has been secured. A big sigh of relief was breathed on the day I got the letter. Some of you are automatically going to hate me, based purely on my job. I am now a fully fledged, bona fide civil servant. Sometimes I cannot believe it, having to pinch myself at the the sea-change in my personal circumstances over a two year period – from working at Sainsbury’s to being a civil servant and engaged to the woman I love. Life is pretty damn good. I think now that I have accepted that my depression is to be managed, not cured, I have found things a lot easier to deal with.
Last weekend, I had the pleasure of seeing Man Utd win at Old Trafford. It was roughly a decade ago when I last went. Even though it’s been an abysmal season [thus far], I was excited to be able to support my team, being part of a great atmosphere. Well, I thought it was great considering everything that went before it this season, including but not limited to the plane debacle. I was there when Mata scored his first goal for this great club. It was the first time he looked like the Mata we all know from his spell at Chelsea, not that that was in any way his fault. Moyes has gone out of his way to make Rooney feel loved, forcing Mata wide. It also doesn’t help that Moyes simply doesn’t know his best team, other than ‘Rooney must start all games’.
A good performance was put in against the European champions, Bayern Munich. But there’s a little question niggling at me, and others, what if caution wasn’t the default option for Moyes? What if we played instead of allowing Bayern to do so? I know this is arrogant, but Utd should never be underdogs at home. We should be going toe-toe with the great teams in Europe, I just hope that we can do so again. We face Bayern in the Allianz Arena on Wednesday, can we win? Of course we can, but it will take a special performance to do so and there’s been little to show it is possible. It will probably be our last game of Champions League football until at least the 15/16 season, and that makes me sad, and angry. The fall has been sharp and I don’t think it’s wrong to expect better. Do I have faith in Moyes to turn things around? Simply put, no. Results have been woeful, with woefully inadequate performances being more prevalent than decent ones. He’s spent £64m and brought the team plummeting new depths. He should go.
I read a brilliant book recently, The Farm by Tom Rob-Smith. Truly stunning, with sharp, stark bodies of text in each chapter. It’s the first book I’ve read start to finish in quite a while.
Will it be another five months before the next blog? Quite possibly, or it could be five minutes. Swings and roundabouts.
For now, and always, goodbye and good mental health.